Secrets, Lies and the truth

This is probely going to sound a lot like the blog before the last one but I dont care. Ive come to realize that sometimes, ignorance is bliss. Everything can be okay, a long way away from great, but okay and then suddenly you can find something out that just makes everything worse. Like the kind of secret you not supposed to know and it only complicates an already complicated matter? It wasnt too bad in central, only a few things here and there but ever since I got to south peace its all been one big conspiracy. There are alot og great times too but there often overshadowed by these secrets and lies. The truth usually only makes it worse and sometimes I just dont know what to do.

Ooopsie

hey, just wanted to say please ignore the earlier blog. I had a sudden bitchy momment and kinda just...uggg. Anyway, Im much calmer now and might be back later so bye!

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All the High School Drama

© By Lauren R. Mccullough

She turned to see the look in his eyes
Then bowed her head and turned to cry
For she knew in her heart he would never be hers
Her feelings could not be put into words
All she felt was the urge to die
But there she stood and wondered why
Why couldn't he feel the same way
And could she make it through another day
She had never had a feeling so strong
But then her friends proved her wrong
They reminded her of all the guys
Who in the years before had made her cry
But she had so easily got over them
So why couldn't she get over him
Was it his smile, his everlasting gaze
That made her heart become ablaze
As the weeks slowly passed
Another guy's heart she had grasped
But she did not feel the same way
And the phrase 'I love you' seemed so cliché'
So she never said it back
And her love for him he forever lacked
So in this circle that never ends
A new door opens, a passion begins
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I See Me

by Jay

When I look into these eyes I find things no one else ever catches a glimpse at I see this fear of judgment that makes her cower at confrontation I see this hopelessness for the future that make her choices her burden alone I see this desperate need for companionship to make her strong in the savage world of humans I see this courage caged in her thoughts of inferiority I see these thoughts of abandonment that make her cling to anything I see this devotion to her beliefs that makes her fear death And I hate that the person I always see is me.

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Found these two poems and video on the web and Im beginning to realize I hate all the drama and secrets and stress involved in highschool. Seriously, life is so fucked up right now and not just for me.

Life can be so pointless....

Sitting here in computer tech right now (done all my "oh so hard" work) typing this. Not much to say to continue to ramble on... Bunbun and I continue to try and find immortal aims identity and we think we might know... Looked up some music Ry recomened and found this video, video is okay but I kinda really like the song. Continued after video >



Well, If you watched it good for you, if not, i understand. Still cant find a good shot to enter in the spss art contest but i'll find something Im sure. Went to sammymaries sweet 16 on saturday and it was really fun. We all hung out, ate alot and acted like creepy grudge children. At the moment Im just listening to songs on youtube while browsing on deviant art and Im finding some pretty nice stuff. I just noticed that my lst couple of posts have been in blue and purple... (I was going to do this one like that...)... See how bored I am? I have no life except for work (the bowling alley) and homework! Only have about 20 minutes left of the block so Im signing off of here... cya'll later!

friday night chillaxin

Soooooooooooo.... Im sitting here (friday night), drinking a grape fanta, listening to rasputin - Boney M & Living on a prayer - Bon Jovi while surfing the net and talking to 2 of my friends on msn who also happen to blog (BunBun and Sammymarie). Right now were having a conversation involving rasputin (the song and the character in the movie), snape (who played rasputin in the rasputin movie), dumbledoor, baths and non-hot actors.... Were weird okay? This weekends going to be bust cause I work tomarrow and am going to sammymaries party then on sunday Im working and doing a dinner thing for my moms birthday... AND i have homework on top of this... damn. Oh well. Im currently reading "It" by Stephen King (along with a bazillion others including many manga series..) and Im finding that its quite a good book. Well my blogging mood just died fast cause one of my friends left and Im out of grape pop sooooooooo i might be back later! If not check out my deviantart.com account @ http://chaoslyrics.deviantart.com/ Cya'll later! Peace out.

wOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

So its officially 2008. And has been for the past 3 days now.... so what if this post is kinda late?!? Anyways, ive been reading sammymaries blog and I just heard the good news! The guy who played cedric digory in the 4th harry potter film is going to be playing edward cullen in the twilight movie! wOOOOOOOOOO! I cant wait to see it! But enough fangirlish swooning... New years eve was fun. I stayed the night at Bunbuns house and ry and brend stopped over for a couple of hours. We drank daqurais, mocktinis, watched movies (the notebook - V. good movie) (Lady in the water - Biggest peice of crap movie you will ever see) and had fireworks. Went to bed at about 3:30. I might come back on later... i just totally lost my train of thought and my intention to blog...